Well, now that I'm over the past, my thoughts are turning towards just what I want to do with myself in the future. Ignoring all apocalyptic predictions, I want to have some vague outline as to where my life is heading.
I've decided that I want to give dating another shot. I feel that I'm finally in the right mindset to date again. I'm just not sure how I want to go about doing that. After 2 attempts at eHarmony (even despite not being emotionally ready), I'm concluded that it's just not for me. It's too structured, too rigid. Honestly, I would love to not have to go the internet dating route, but it's nearly impossible for me to meet anyone any other way. I spend long days at work. I don't really like bars that much. I DESPISE clubs, and that includes most of the people found in clubs. I don't have a wide group of friends, so the chances of meeting someone through one of my friends are very small. Therefore, online dating seems like the only way to go.
I don't know... Maybe I had to hit my lowest point in order to understand what I really wanted out of life. All I know is that I'm not desperate right now. I'm also not overly concerned with pleasing everyone. I feel like I can finally just go out there and be myself without fearing rejection or ridicule.
Anyway... That's the direction I'm contemplating right now. I'm not really sure I want to dive into online dating right away, but within the next couple of months, I probably will. I think I could have fun this time instead of feeling pressured.
(This was one of the most disjointed blog posts I've ever written... Sorry).