In my previous post, I wasn't saying that I don't think I should be acting youthful anymore. I was stating that on my current path, I'll be shooting hoops and screwing around until I'm 40 and suddenly realize that I'm old and still single.
I think this isn't only a problem with me, but it's becoming an increasing problem (if you could call it a problem) in society. Fifty years ago, a 26-year old would have been expected to be married with kids. Today, 26 doesn't even necessarily mean you've moved out of your parents' house yet. To illustrate this, I still don't really consider myself an adult yet. I still think of myself as some kid who just happens to have a grown-up's job.
It's this illusion of having so much time left that scares me. I'm almost 30! Yes, it's OK to play basketball and do all those other fun things, but at the same time, you have to realize that right now, I do those things at the expense of a social life. Shooting 500 jumpshots per day is great for my jumpshooting ability, but it's not getting me any women. I try to think that something will come along when I least expect it, so I should just go about my life without worrying about it. However, what happens if someone doesn't come along?
There's that saying: "Chance favors the prepared mind." Well, I think this situation is a good example of that. Yes, someone might enter my life or someone I already know may take on a larger role than I ever expected, but I have to at least put myself in a situation where those chances improve. Shooting hoops and playing cards with the same 4 guys several times per week is not helping me.
That's my point though. Those things are really fun now, but that's not exactly what I want to be doing 10 years from now. It's not where I envision myself, but if I keep going about my life as I have been, I probably won't get to where I want to be. And that would be a shame because I'm much more than those loser guys that are 40 years old, single, and do nothing but play video games and watch Star Trek reruns all day. I have so much to offer mentally and emotionally that it would be a shame if I wind up alone.
By the way... These last couple of posts are meant to have more of a thoughtful mood than a depressing one. I'm quite content at the moment and, for the most part, less anxious than I have been in a long time.
One more thing: I apologize for the lack of pharmacy-related posts, but I simply do not feel the need to write about my job right now. I don't get upset or frustrated with customers that much anymore. I'm just happy and grateful to have my current job, and I'm hoping that I'll have this job for a long time. Even if every customer yelled and screamed at me all day long, I'd be happy to go in every day. A lot of unemployed and minimally paid people would kill for the opportunity to endure our crazy customers and make 6-figures doing so.