I got to thinking why I actually bother to write this blog, and I realized that I have no idea. Many people do this as a release, as a way to vent off the frustrations of the day. This isn't a release to me because I still hold back a lot of the things I'd really like to say. I originally thought that this blog would be a place for me to share funny stories like other pharmacists. The problem is that while I have a lot of funny stories to tell, I don't tell them in a funny way.
So why do I continue posting these unimportant, uninteresting dribbles? I honestly don't know. Quite frankly, the more people that read this, the more uneasy I get about it.... and I've barely revealed anything about myself in my writing.
Do you know that I write, erase, then rewrite my posts over and over again before finally settling on something that is just blah enough to not really offend anyone? The reason: I'm offended by my own thoughts sometimes. I write something, then can't believe that's how I really feel, so I rewrite it, but I'm not really happy about that version either, so I write it again.
Just now, I wrote a whole paragraph and erased it because I didn't like what I was saying. This begs the question... If I can't even be honest in an anonymous blog, how can I ever be honest in any part of my life?
And I just erased another paragraph. This is getting me nowhere. In any case, I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this blog up.