You know... I wouldn't feel so bad about my life if it weren't for everyone constantly making me feel like shit for sitting around and not doing anything on my days off.
Take my mother for example: It's a pretty nice day out today. In fact, the past 4 or 5 days have all been pretty nice. My mom calls me today. "Where are you? You're at home??? You mean you didn't go out today? It's so nice. Why don't you call someone and go somewhere?"
Well, maybe I just didn't feel like going anywhere today. I had a fairly busy day yesterday. I hung out and went to the beach with a bunch of friends. It's too cold to go in the water, but we spent most of the afternoon hiking along the beach. Then we got seafood for dinner and finished the night playing poker. I thought that was a pretty good day. I was relaxed. I got some exercise. It was nice. Today, I just felt like sitting around and watching the NBA playoffs today. Do I have to go somewhere every day? Is there something wrong with just wanting to be by myself?
I feel like I'd be much happier with myself if I didn't have to constantly explain myself to the people around me. My mom tells me that they always call me into work instead of anyone else because they know I don't have much of a social life. You know what? That is true. I don't have much of a social life, but for the most part, I don't want to have a very active social life. I like to occasionally hang out with friends, but I don't really like going to bars. As I stated in an earlier entry, I hate clubs. I don't like going to concerts. I'd rather watch sporting events on TV than actually be there in person.
Give me a warm day and a basketball court to myself, and I'm happy. Throw in the occasional dinner and some nights of playing cards, and I'm satisfied. I'll date someone when I'm good and ready to. If I'm never ready, or if I never meet anyone who I feel is worth my time, then that's fine. I'm really OK with that. I just hate having to listen to family, friends, and coworkers ask me why I don't do more things or go out on more dates. They make me feel ashamed of myself for just being who I am.
That's about all I wanted to say. I just want people to stop pestering me.